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I tried to not draw or paint for a month and I realized how important it is to me.
Also I didn't write (stories or poems) for a couple of weeks but I couldn't survive that one and I gave in...
And so the other day I draw some symbols and letters and I felt like I could breath again. WOW!
(It must sound silly to people without artistic tendencies but for me art is (almost) all I've got.)
And all this experiment started after I finished a painting class in my university and I was feeling so useless all the while but in the end I got 9/10 for the class and I felt like something was wrong.
My teacher said that I tried and I did some good things but he said that my paintings "are art; bad art, but art" and I felt really bad about myself, because I was trying all my life to became an artist (while hating the fact that I had an artistic personality and I am really sensitive... to everything) and his words made me afraid to paint something less that what I paint during class.
In the end I realised that my problem during the course was that I care about art and I wanted to learn more things about it, not just pass the class. Which made me restless and intrigued in a degree that I swear to never paint again (...denial...) because I couldn't paint as perfectly as I wished to.(...acceptance...)
I still can't bring myself to paint but I'll get there eventually. The experiment was so I could see if art is really important to me, if it was worth the anxiety that I felt... and the answer is yes, because I'm a person with artistic tendencies by "design" therefore it's in my "nature" to make art.(or at least try to...)
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I hope everyone is alright and keep fighting with their demons(because if you don't fight you can't expect to win, right?) and I wish everyone to be healthy and happy(if possible).
Thanks for reading my "stuff", we'll be in touch...
(not literally touch, because that's against physic's laws... but you know what I mean...)
Also I didn't write (stories or poems) for a couple of weeks but I couldn't survive that one and I gave in...
And so the other day I draw some symbols and letters and I felt like I could breath again. WOW!
(It must sound silly to people without artistic tendencies but for me art is (almost) all I've got.)
And all this experiment started after I finished a painting class in my university and I was feeling so useless all the while but in the end I got 9/10 for the class and I felt like something was wrong.
My teacher said that I tried and I did some good things but he said that my paintings "are art; bad art, but art" and I felt really bad about myself, because I was trying all my life to became an artist (while hating the fact that I had an artistic personality and I am really sensitive... to everything) and his words made me afraid to paint something less that what I paint during class.
In the end I realised that my problem during the course was that I care about art and I wanted to learn more things about it, not just pass the class. Which made me restless and intrigued in a degree that I swear to never paint again (...denial...) because I couldn't paint as perfectly as I wished to.(...acceptance...)
I still can't bring myself to paint but I'll get there eventually. The experiment was so I could see if art is really important to me, if it was worth the anxiety that I felt... and the answer is yes, because I'm a person with artistic tendencies by "design" therefore it's in my "nature" to make art.(or at least try to...)
--
I hope everyone is alright and keep fighting with their demons(because if you don't fight you can't expect to win, right?) and I wish everyone to be healthy and happy(if possible).
Thanks for reading my "stuff", we'll be in touch...
(not literally touch, because that's against physic's laws... but you know what I mean...)
Hi everyone!
Just wanted to say hi.
Hope everyone is alright and kicking.
Now I'm going back to my cave
till next time... Joy to you all. :)
It's been a while...
update on my works/ self-advertisement time :)
"3 is a crowd #4", 4th part in attempt at humor with my 3 quirky characters, "who dreamt who" is the question...
"To make a human" was the "child" of me watching slam poetry on youtube (I can find you some of my favorites if you ask) and it was a highly emotional moment for me to be honest. I think/hope it shows in the poem. I believe there is a crowd of people that doesn't believe(anymore) in the ideal portrait of parenthood and as a member I try to write about it. I hope it brings awarness and helps people realize they are not alone.
"Survive!" and "transformation" are two twin pieces (born
Hi, there!
I write... stuff.
And then I self-advertising them on my journals.(check them if you don't believe me)
(just wanted to take off my holiday-season/last journal down...)
Go ahead and check the merchandise!
They are free...
(And free stuff are good stuff. Right?)
Joy to you all~ :)
Happy Holidays, if you are into that...
In another note, I begin a new system when I write stories.
I have really good ideas lately once or twice a day and so I made a new way of writing them down.
I usually start writing the story as I imagine it to go which makes me lose my way and neve ending anything.
But now I started writing the summary of every scene and some details and I'll write like that till I have an ending. When the story ends(somewhere and somehow) I'll begin to give it "flesh"(since those summaries are the bone structure). I've got three stories in the making I think I can see the end. ("God only knows" reference) and I'm really happy about that.
What I made sin
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